[Snorting at that, Kanda palms the vial, closes his fist around it as he pushes off the rover, starts towards Lavi. It's an odd mix of relief and... disappointment?... when Lavi offers him a smile and light words instead of recrimination.
Not that he'd wanted an argument with the man, but Lavi usually had a way of seeing nuance where Kanda could not and given his exhausted state of mind, he's not entirely sure he trusts his judgement when it comes to his personal mistakes. But in this, beyond the initial suggestions of alternatives, his partner seems content to let him make his own choices. His own mistakes.
He's not quite sure what to make of that, so for now, he doesn't try. Instead he just shrugs as he nears the other man.]
Not this time, but I was tempted.
[He's always tempted to, with Itsuki. The man can be annoying and baffling, and honestly even thought Kanda knows the little flirtations are just to get under his skin, the reaction is always instantaneous with people that do it.
Reaching out, Kanda taps the edge of the book down under Lavi's elbow, just enough to see the title. It's one he hasn't seen before, so probably something picked up before they'd left the monastery. This close, there is the familiar scent of old paper and ink and something warm, familiar.
He takes a breath, grounds himself in the familiar, and then looks up to meet that bright gaze.]
The side effects are supposed to be pretty mild, and that bastard says it'll only become addictive if someone were to take it several times a day or some shit. But...
[Making a face, Kanda taps the spine of the book again as he frowns thoughtfully.]
I didn't ask how an accelerated healing would affect it. [He wasn't willing to trust Itsuki with that much information about him, yet.] And he did say it takes a little while to kick in so... how do you want to do this?
[It's the closest Kanda can bring himself to asking his partner to stay nearby, just in case. To guard his back in a forced sleep, even as he does with everything else.
Why asking this much feels harder than he'd thought, he wasn't sure, but all the same... he blinks, blue gaze steady, if not a little unsure, and waits.]
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Not that he'd wanted an argument with the man, but Lavi usually had a way of seeing nuance where Kanda could not and given his exhausted state of mind, he's not entirely sure he trusts his judgement when it comes to his personal mistakes. But in this, beyond the initial suggestions of alternatives, his partner seems content to let him make his own choices. His own mistakes.
He's not quite sure what to make of that, so for now, he doesn't try. Instead he just shrugs as he nears the other man.]
Not this time, but I was tempted.
[He's always tempted to, with Itsuki. The man can be annoying and baffling, and honestly even thought Kanda knows the little flirtations are just to get under his skin, the reaction is always instantaneous with people that do it.
Reaching out, Kanda taps the edge of the book down under Lavi's elbow, just enough to see the title. It's one he hasn't seen before, so probably something picked up before they'd left the monastery. This close, there is the familiar scent of old paper and ink and something warm, familiar.
He takes a breath, grounds himself in the familiar, and then looks up to meet that bright gaze.]
The side effects are supposed to be pretty mild, and that bastard says it'll only become addictive if someone were to take it several times a day or some shit. But...
[Making a face, Kanda taps the spine of the book again as he frowns thoughtfully.]
I didn't ask how an accelerated healing would affect it. [He wasn't willing to trust Itsuki with that much information about him, yet.] And he did say it takes a little while to kick in so... how do you want to do this?
[It's the closest Kanda can bring himself to asking his partner to stay nearby, just in case. To guard his back in a forced sleep, even as he does with everything else.
Why asking this much feels harder than he'd thought, he wasn't sure, but all the same... he blinks, blue gaze steady, if not a little unsure, and waits.]