[Because she still doesn't want to admit why she's stubborn. Because guilt would eat her alive, that her purpose is nothing - she needs to believe, because she won't be able to handle it otherwise. But maybe she should tell me. It seems like he really needs to know how.]

I could say the same about you. It would've been simple to block my contact and leave things at that. But I like you too much to stop seeing you.

[Lapis does have a hunch. And while Lapis herself has no self-loathing, per say, if only because she sees herself as something of little value. It's why she throws herself into making people happy, because she feels like there's nothing else for her. She was born to help improve humanity, and so she will do so.]

I know. But I still enjoyed our time together, I just hope we can have some more in the future. Even if it's not as often.

[There's a pause, her eyes glancing down at the ground as she presses her lips together. it's the most she's bared herself to anyone ever, but... Maybe this can help. Maybe it will take that weight off his mind.]

But... It wasn't easy at first, holding onto hope. But I found it in helping people, talking to you, seeing a crowd cheer, and so it made me believe. I'm only stubborn because I would break down otherwise.